i guess i haven't been here like for ages, cause it took me extra 2 minutes to figure out where on earth can i write a message.

so here i am. safe and sound, working, serving, living an adult life, learning how to survive in this world an be happy with it. i guess that's it. bye.)))

just kidding. though, to be honest, i have a very complicated and busy life and it's pretty tough to explain everything that i do right now. all i know - i do a lot. and i love it. i love my job, i love my church and i love my friends. and that's already enough to be one of the happiest, even when i face problems.

what else.....um.....it's raining here. and i am babysitting my youngest sister. and....hm...i want an ice-cream. so  i'll probably go and get one.

just in case if you forgot how do i look, i'll add this pic. have a nice day and let me know, how are yall!)))

well, hello xanga.

writing here is something i had done so long ago, that soon those few of you, who still try to watch what's going on in my life, will have a strong sense that  if i am not dead, than at least  i am  married or forgot english or stay disconnected most of the time or whatsoever else.

well, i guess i suppose to feel guilty (including not responding to emails all of that must burn my consciousness dead) but for some unknown reason (may be too much coffee or too much rain which caused my strong need in drinking too much coffee. or may be too much stuff going on which causes my desire to drink too much coffee) i don't feel guilty. i feel tired, which is also pretty normal, considering the fact that i am passing final exams now, work a lot, serve even more than a lot, planning two weddings (one is coming on following Saturday and those of you, who know Vi4ka and Harrison Hays-don't forget to congratulate them)  add to that only couple of hours of sleep per day and almost no food (no diet- i am just not hungry) and lots of needy people-here we go!

yeah, i know that sounds very dark and i seem like a very depressed person. both of which is not true. blame the rain and coffee. and yeah, i am just being sassy and sarcastic, which is also pretty normal for me=)))

well, that's basically what's going in my life now. your turn!

good random thought in some random article:

"I think sometimes people are afraid to say that they're happy -- they feel guilty about it. My life isn't perfect. I have my struggles; everybody does. But I want to appreciate all of the amazing things in my life. People should have the right to be happy." 

i am leaving soon....in a week, just going to work in another country for 2 weeks.....it's gonna be hard, but for the first time i've realised today, how badly i need just to get out of here, so i can make up my mind and put myself back together....i have no idea how will i achieve it, but i just desperately need some rest, mental more than physical....

anyhow, how are you and what are your plans for next month?